Its not all chocolate and caviar

Well. It was one of those days!

I think, first I will give you some background information. You may remember that I said that my parents were divorced. Well, they each have a new partner. My dad married a nice woman although she really bugs me sometimes. They have been married for about 8 years I think, they have had two girls, aged 4 and the little one, who is about 16 months old.

My mum has been with an Indian man for 10 years and they have also had two children, a boy and a girl. The boy, my brother is 9 years old and my sister is almost 7.

Anyway.

Whilst my father and my stepmother have a good relationship, the same cannot be said for my mum and her partner. They argue all the time, normally it gets very heated, although it has never resorted to violence at least not while I've been there. :-/

Recently they have been arguing more and more and my mums partner has threatened to kick her out on several occasions. This always ends in tears, normally hers. I get left to pick up the pieces, not fun! So, it has finally reached the point where my mum is actually leaving. We have seen some houses, and one looks good. Fingers crossed we can get it. I worry that it will fall through though. :-(

The next few weeks will be tough for sure. The move, adjusting and the money. We are not that wealthy and we are really going to struggle to be able to afford the house. My mum hasn't got any family living near us. The closest relative is in Wales. They are the only people on my mums side that we talk to. She has other brothers and sisters although I have never met them, and mum hasn't spoken to them for almost 25 years. So no help there :/

My dad said that he will help, even though they are divorced they are still friends. So that is a positive.

I'm just worried, I feel as though something will go wrong and we will be back to square one again.

Also, my mum drinks. She always has done. My biggest fear is that she will drink herself to an early grave or if she gets depressed (which she has done in the past) that she could...you know... well doesn't bare thinking about really.

So, yesterday. That is what I wanted to talk about. Sorry for the long winded, quite depressing story. I probably put more than you wanted to know. Sorry bout that. I just need to get some things of my chest. Perhaps if I write about them, then the answer may become clearer. Who knows?

Well, she was pretty distraught last night. Cried for ages. Said some things that I won't repeat but it was a tough night. She started packing her bags. It was not pleasant. I convinced her to listen to her partners suggestion. I get on well enough with him, despite the fact that he is an absolute nob. He was prepared to compromise, she was too upset to reason clearly, so I had to coax her out of her state to listen to what he had to say. In the end they seemed to agree on what to do. It is a good compromise. Hopefully things will begin to improve.


Well. Sorry for that everyone. I didn't mean to ramble on about my problems.

I will try to post some happier things.


Love,
J xx